I'm making new things again. Varsity
is out for the year, I'm meant to be g
lad but my whole life is disintegrating
and here I am, making new things. It
's all I can do to keep breathing. All t
hat scares me is that after such a pro
longued period of numbness it's going
to be difficult to regain feeling. The ju
ry's still out on whether or not I want
to. It just feels like you've gone hom
e for the holidays and taken every an
chor that kept me here with you. Giv
e them back. I need them more than
you do.